It has been quite a while since I have posted on here and I have an explanation….. My dreams have finally turned into reality and I am FINALLY pregnant! It took a little over 3 years, but we have finally made it to the milestone that I have been anticipating and praying for every day. Here’s the best part…. we did so naturally (for the most part.)
After trying naturally for over 3 years and being told by many OBGYN’s that nothing seemed too out of the ordinary, I was diagnosed with unexplained infertility and was recommended to a specialist to further analyze my situation around 11 months ago. After conducting tests, loads of blood work and exams we were finally given some sort of clue as to why I have not been able to conceive. We were advised that my FSH levels were on the higher side indicating I may have poor ovarian reserve. She basically told me that my reproductive system looked like someone of 38-40 years old and not of a woman in her early 30’s. She had no doubt I was ovulating, but was doubtful that my egg quality was very good.
We decided to schedule an IUI quickly even though she expressed doubt that it would work, but also advised that we should at least try that option first especially since our insurance covered most of it. We scheduled an appointment in August upon our return from a mini getaway that my husband and I planned for ourselves in July. I would be ovulating during the week of our vacation planned so there was no way we could get it done that month. She decided to give me Clomid to take before I was scheduled to ovulate and bumped the dosage a substantial amount. I had already gone through 4 rounds of Clomid at 50 mgs to no avail, so I took the prescription without much of a thought.
I was recommended to take hormone injections to help stimulate ovulation. I was prescribed Follistim, a luteinizing hormone that is used to stimulate ovulation and boost follicle and egg maturation. It basically triggers your ovaries to produce large quantities of eggs. I was also advised to take Pregnyl, aka the HCG shot. It is the same hormone that we women produce naturally, however, with the shot you take in around 10,000x more of the hormone that you would normally produce on your own.
Both Nurse and Dr. gave us a crash course on how and when this was to be done. We were told how to assemble the Follistim Pen and how my husband was to administer it to me. Feel around, pinch the belly and then inject the needle into it. We then received another brief run through on Pregnyl and how it also gets administered. Very similar to the Follistim. My eyes are starting to glaze over and I smile and nod pretending to absorb all this information. It is all a very confusing jumble in my head. I’ll figure it out right? We have some DVDs to watch…
Now here comes the fun part, calling the insurance company and fertility pharmacies to see which pharmacy would take our insurance plan and which drugs they would cover. We go in circles having to call around 3-4 different pharmacies because nobody seems to be on the same page and we finally find one that does accept the Pregnyl. They offer us a discount coupon and we only have to pay a copay which is GREAT news! The Follistim, however, is not covered which throws us in for another loop. These drugs are NOT inexpensive. The price ranges from $2000-$3000 with no coverage. The only option they offer us is applying for an income contingent discount program to see if qualify to have a substantial discount. All this fuss and scramble is done while we are on vacation by the way because we have to make sure we have it delivered within a certain time frame in order for it to work in conjunction with our IUI scheduled for the following month. Our mini wifey/hubby getaway alone is turning into a stressful nightmare. We finally get everything underway to apply and now we are in the waiting game. Time to enjoy ourselves and our first vacation alone sans children. (He has 2 daughters from previous relationships.)
We originally made plans to combine a trip to Puerto Rico followed by Florida, but when my Dr. asked where we were going, she advised that she would not be able to treat me for 6 months if we went to PR because parts of the Island had been exposed with Zika prior and there could still be some trace amounts left over. Having to change our flights around was a bit of a stress but luckily everyone was super supportive once we explained our situation. We both had a great time in Florida visiting our family and friends and bouncing around to different cities without a care in the world. We enjoyed plenty of sun, fun, cocktails, and our alone time made for some romantic evenings if you catch my drift. 😉
Upon our return, I am back at the fertility clinic going through my routine round of blood work. They advise that I am scheduled for my pregnancy test the following week. I’m back within the week and my nurse is asking if I am excited. I shrug because I am not. I literally have no emotions about it. I feel as if I am about to bleed any minute and my PMS symptoms are on the rise. I am in bitch mode that morning. They draw a vial of blood and I’m sent on my merry way….
Three hours later I receive the phone call that has changed my world forever….
“Krystal, we just want to inform you that your results came back and you tested positive for pregnancy.”
“Wait excuse me? What?”
“You are pregnant.”
“Are you serious right now? Like this isn’t a joke.”
The nurse laughs. I’m pretty sure she gets this reaction often and replies “No you are definitely pregnant.” Blood work doesn’t lie.
And that was it. We didn’t have to undergo any intensive treatment. No hormones, no shots, no pain and anxiety. Just a little white pill I was given for 5 days before our vacation and some time away alone with my husband for once. Maybe all it took was some time to get myself out of the situation I was in and focus on happiness, sunshine, relaxation, and Netflix and chill time without the Netflix…
I do have someone majorly to thank and that is God. I truly believe he was listening to all my prayers, my cries, even the not so nice prayers and curses I’ve sent his way. I remember one afternoon sitting outside my front yard journaling after a specialist visit and talking to him. I gave him my resignation and told Him that it was in his hands. We just couldn’t afford to spend thousands of dollars on hormone shots on a monthly basis. I also couldn’t mentally handle the emotional and financial stress that came with IVF treatment. IVF would not be covered under our plan. I specifically remember whispering out loud… “let it be your will.”
He taught me a valuable lesson. Perseverance is key, however, when you learn how to let go and accept that you cannot design a timeline in life… that is typically when miracles tend to happen. A little bit of patience, faith, and sometimes yes, even defeat can yield beautiful results.
We are slated to have our beautiful baby girl arrive on April 11th. I couldn’t be more excited, nervous, scared, and completely elated to meet her! Praises all around!